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Now, here and always

How long does a sparrow stay on the branch,

Who knows the flight time?

beautiful in its vagueness,

Wonderful life with its impermanence,

Gratitude to you is in our acceptance.

How long does a sparrow stay on the branch,

Who knows the flight time?

beautiful in its vagueness,

Wonderful life with its impermanence,

Gratitude to you is in our acceptance.


Hello dear Banu,

I hope you're good. As you wrote that I am waiting for your letters, the above verses came out of my tongue. I am one of those who think that coping with the uncertainty of these days is possible by changing our perspective. I'm one of those who think, don't ask how much I succeed.

The verses were the ones that came to my mind without a literary feature, so they do not have the characteristics of a song, of course... It is difficult for a person to express his feelings poetically. Maybe I can write what makes me think here.

While almost nothing is predictable and controllable in the terrestrial realm where our souls come by accepting incarnation, while we are born in the midst of this reality (and perhaps by accepting and then forgetting this fact beforehand), one of the concepts we are most disturbed by is uncertainty. What a laughable thing in itself. This state of ours is perhaps the basis for one of our greatest tests. It prevents us from seeing the magic of the present, the abundance of the different alternatives in the present.

I think the fact of the pandemic has made us meet again with these human conditions, and I hope it will also help us to face it and move forward. In this sense, another Meltem came out of me; A Meltem, whose anxiety level has increased, and who, with the reflex of protecting her loved ones, falls into funny situations like gurk chickens. A human being who is getting tired of himself and getting tired of himself. At this point, it's as if I took a step towards looking at myself, seeing myself as I am. The fact that I couldn't control life stood in front of me hugely, the thing I thought I knew.


I wrote daily sentences to remind myself of the tiny awareness that came with these thoughts. That I am free from the worries that limit me, here, now and always. We have each one of them in our dough and they will always accompany us, but it is different if they are accompanying, subtractive. The process of experiencing negative emotions without denying them, first seeing their existence and then being able to release them in acceptance, began inside me. (Isn't sentences as long as verses?) The transience of life reminds us that it is necessary to live it with so much pleasure. When we realize that every moment contains a surprise, we can attribute another meaning to uncertainty. What makes us feel bad can also open other beautiful doors. Isn't it exciting that the same phenomenon contains two opposite concepts? In this magic, one can find the beauty of uncertainty and the splendor of impermanence. The me today is all the good, bad, unlucky, overwhelming, happy, etc. If I am shaped by things that I can describe as "thank you for the existence of all of them" I say.


For this very reason, the greatest emotion we feel when we accept life with everything is gratitude. These were the feelings and thoughts underlying the above lines…


My dear Banu, letters used to come to mind, flowing from the heart, from the pen in the past. Please accept this as well.


With love,

Meltem Altinkaya

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